Rest and Reflect

I’ve been sick for the past two weeks and still not feeling too well hence the reason for not posting but I’m slowly coming back and while I’m sick I was feeling like I’m missing out on things to do and feeling anxious but then I decided to take my time to rest and so I’m here to tell you also to rest, slow it down and take it easy.

And while trying to have a relaxing morning, I was thinking about a question to reflect upon and here it is.

If today was the last day of your life, would you do what you are already doing today or do something different?

For me when I was young, I used to think I would want to travel the world but now I would choose to be surrounded by my family while having a nice meal talking about our beautiful memories.

What about you? Comment below

What are your goals for the next year?

Don’t Be Afraid

To the heart in you, don’t be afraid to feel.

To the sun in you, don’t be afraid to shine.

To the love in you, don’t be afraid to heal.

To the ocean in you, don’t be afraid to rage.

To the silence in you, don’t be afraid to break.

– Najwa Zebian

The Past

You need to come face-to-face with the past, not some naive, easily wounded boy, but as a grown-up, independent professional. Not to see what you want to see, but what you must see. Otherwise, you’ll carry around that baggage for the rest of your life.

– Haruki Murakami

I truly resonate with this quote as I struggled for years with the past and I was unable to move on until I was fed up and decided to do something about it as it was affecting my present time.

So I finally stopped fearing and faced it which was difficult as I’m used to suppress the feelings and memories but when I actually devoted time to sit down by myself and reflect on everything, only then I was able to understand what I was feeling and the reasons behind it.

I’m not saying everything is perfect now, no definitely not but I feel much lighter and more at peace.

Remember that no one is perfect but always work on yourself to become a better version of yourself.

Quotes: The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger

“What really knocks me out is a book that, when you’re all done reading it, you wish the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it. That doesn’t happen much, though.”

“I was trying to feel some kind of good-bye. I mean I’ve left schools and places I didn’t even know I was leaving them. I hate that. I don’t care if it’s a sad good-bye or a bad good-bye, but when I leave a place I like to know I’m leaving it. If you don’t you feel even worse.”

“Among other things, you’ll find that you’re not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You’re by no means alone on that score, you’ll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You’ll learn from them—if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It’s a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn’t education. It’s history. It’s poetry.”

“I like it when somebody gets excited about something. It’s nice.”

“And I have one of those very loud, stupid laughs. I mean if I ever sat behind myself in a movie or something, I’d probably lean over and tell myself to please shut up.”

2023 Goals

What were some of the goals you have set for this year? Did you achieve any?

One of my goals was to read 23 books (yes cliche 23 books for 2023) and so far, I have read 21 books and I’m confident that I’ll achieve my goal.

When I started this blog years ago, I was going through a difficult time in life but at the same time I found myself in books which helped me in several ways. And since then, I have read 121 books and I’m very much proud of myself even though I know I can read more if I have time but as I work two jobs my free time is split between reading and watching movies/series.

With the year coming to an end, I’m hoping to achieve some more goals that I have set for this year personally and professionally.

I’ll be sharing my favourite quotes from the books I have read soon.

Stay safe!

Missing you

I miss you…even though I do not like to admit it to my own self but I do miss you…ever since our last fight I feel the urge to hold my phone and text you..but..I wouldn’t because I do not want to return back to the same phase wherein I forgive and try to forget and get hurt by your actions and words for the thousand time..so I decide to let go of you and bury my heart and feelings and so I am just here left with the pain..because that’s all you caused me…pain.

Forgiveness

I will never forget all the pain you painted in my heart and soul neither the painful words you said to me. And the fact that you wouldn’t believe me just because you didn’t want to see the truth. But I will forgive you for the sweet good memories we had together in our old days to let my heart feel peace and move on with all my wounds alone…this is my goodbye to you.

Trust

Over the years and especially this month after facing a certain issue, I have realized and learned a big lesson which is not to trust anyone with your secrets no matter how well you know the person. Because, unfortunately even the people who I care for more than anything in this world and are so close to me, they always tend to hurt me when any problem occurs by bringing up stories from my past and speak about how people were right to treat me the way they did which hurt my feelings and they do not realize that when we share our stories with them it is because they mean something special to us not that they have the right to hurt us when they have nothing to say because they are cowards so they use our stories as a defense for themselves.

A lesson learned in 2019….Be careful what to share and do not trust people immediately.

Happy New Year!

Good morning everyone!

Hope you are all having a wonderful Saturday morning. I am writing this post while having a nice hot creamy latte and enjoying my last day in this weekend before starting work tomorrow. I know I am late to post this but HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone! I hope this year will be wonderful for all of you.

To be quiet honest, I feel like 2018 was a good year for me in certain ways, beside the ups and downs and everything I faced that I was so afraid to confront. Yet, I feel that I dealt with it just fine.

Here are some of the things I did in 2018..

1. I read 13 books.
2. I traveled in summer to my country (Lebanon).
3. I studied a course in Insurance which was assigned to me by my manager and I passed the exam.
4. I saved some money.
5. I challenged myself to go out by myself and had a great time.
6. I learned more about myself, my personality and what I like.
7. I spent less time on social media and more time with my family.

Let me know what you all have accomplished in 2018 and what are your goals for this year.

Looking forward to many new opportunities and happy moments in 2019.

Talk to you all later…Have a great day!